This week was complex, as some days felt like they just flew by before I could even cross two things off of my to-do list, while others dragged on and bedtime couldn’t come soon enough.
Now I’m to blame for this, for sure.
I didn’t do a great job of self care this week, and ended up not feeling too hot 3 out of the 5 days. I stressed myself out wayyy beyond what was necessary (is it ever necessary?!), forgot to eat lunch because my head was in the computer due to irrational deadlines that I was putting on myself, and I found that even my eyes were starting to freak out from too much screen time.
I’d finish on my computer, move to my iPad, and inevitably would end up on my cell phone to check in with friends and family with TV in the background.
By night fall, I had nothing to give anyone (T, Jasper) and was just ready to close my eyes and start a new day, vowing that it would be better than the one before.
I had what a lot of us call an “ah-ha moment” the other night when I got so fed up with how I was feeling and knowing it was all my fault.
I told Trent, “I don’t know why I do this to myself. I have the hardest time embracing a slow season, and I convince myself that things have to get done right now or it will all blow up.”
So you know, in turn, when they don’t get done – I feel out of control and like there aren’t enough hours in the day. It’s so silly. (perhaps I should listen to my own advice)
a) there is nothing more important than our health
b) there ARE enough hours in the day – its how you choose to spend them
c) there is nothing that needs to get done TODAY that can’t get done tomorrow.
Due to my recent spastic nature, I took myself to vinyasa yoga on Wednesday night to chill the F out which I needed more than anything.
Have you ever felt like you can’t take one more day in your body if you don’t stretch it out or get a massage? (I did that last night, too! If you’re in South Florida, Vanessa is the best) It helped so much, and the whole way there, I was playing this playlist that I finally completed.
I started making it earlier last month, and it’s a collection of some of the most calming songs on the planet. (to me, anyway!) So I of course wanted to share it with all of you, as you know, music can have a huge effect on our day to day mood and productivity.
So here you have it.